I am

officially a dork. A Twilighter.
HA! I cannot even begin to emphasize how obsessed I am with the Twilight series.
I have now pre- ordered Breaking Dawn, the 4th book, which does not come out til August 2nd. I will also be picking up Eclipse- special edition on Saturday morning. Like I mentioned, I am obsessed.

Anyhow, just thought I'd post a few pics from last Thursday's Promax mixer.

Me and The Friend that Got Away (She seriously needs a new name)

Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse

I've been suckered in!
No pun intended.

I read the whole Twilight series all weekend.
I am now waiting for the 4th book to come out. I am so excited about it, that I've even pre- ordered it at Barnes and Noble. I will be there on August 1st at midnight to pick it up.

Obsessed? To say the least.

Edward is definitely my favorite character. So captivating. So protective, and loving, and gentle, and loyal. He definitely brings out the romantic in me. Ok, he actually brings out the giddy 12 year old girl in me, and I'm in love. HA!

Sunday, Sunday

Today, I am blogging on my new computer.
If you don't know what I'm talking about, scroll down and read the entry below.
This thing is awesome, and I'm madly in love with it. It feels so legit.
Carrie Bradshaw- I am hot on your tail now!

There's really nothing important that I'm blogging about.
Milo has a family BBQ today at work. I need to get my ass in the shower and get ready, but of course, being the queen of procrastination that I am- it has yet to happen.

Anyhow, life is GRAND!
Super Panda

what a wonderful Thursday!

As most people know, I hate Thursdays. It's what stands between me and Friday, which means it's one day closer to the weekend.

However, that all changed today, on this particular Thursday. When this arrived in the mail.

A giant THANK YOU to one of the most generous people I know. I have been wanting one of these for a while now, and was saving up for it. However, whenever I had the money, something else would come up that needed to be funded. But alas, I am now a proud owner of a MACbook Pro.
I am THRILLED beyond words. And of course, EXTREMELY GRATEFUL for such a wonderful gift.

Again, THANK YOU!

On another note, tonight is my first work event in a long while. I am a little apprehensive and feeling a little out of sorts. I will make be there though- with a little help from my friends- one in particular- The One That Got Away. She made sure she was with me tonight. So for that, I am also grateful.

Life is GRAND!
Super Panda

"For everything that has been- THANKS!
For everything that will be, YES!"

YES!

"For everything that has been- THANKS!
For everything that will be, YES!"
(that's from my friend Megan's myspace page.

Here's what I got from the Daily Om today:

May 21, 2008
Making The Decision
Saying Yes To The Universe
The hardest thing about saying yes to the universe is that it means accepting everything life puts in front of us. Most of us have a habit of going through our days saying no to the things we don’t like and yes to the things we do, and yet, everything we encounter is our life. We may be afraid that if we say yes to the things we don’t like, we will be stuck with them forever, but really, it is only through acknowledging the existence of what’s not working for us that we can begin the process of change. So saying yes doesn’t mean indiscriminately accepting things that don’t work for us. It means conversing with the universe, and starting the conversation with a very powerful word—yes.

When we say yes to the universe, we enter into a state of trust that whatever our situation is, we can work with it. We express confidence in ourselves, and the universe, and we also express a willingness to learn from whatever comes our way, rather than running and hiding when we don’t like what we see. The question we might ask ourselves is what it will take for us to get to the point of saying yes. For some of us, it takes coming up against something we can’t ignore, escape, or deny, and so we are left no choice but to say yes. For others, it just seems a natural progression of events that leads us to making the decision to say yes to life.

The first step to saying yes is realizing that in the end it is so much easier than the alternative. Once we understand this, we can begin examining the moments when we resist what is happening, and experiment with occasionally saying yes instead. It might be scary at first, and even painful at times, but if we continue to say yes to every moment through the process, we will discover the joy of being in a positive conversation with a force much bigger than ourselves.

Life is GRAND!
Super Panda

Slowly, but surely

I am getting my groove back!
I cannot say how excited I am about this!
However, the things that I enjoy doing now are totally different than before.
No more late nights at bars/ clubs. No more drunken nights. No more hang overs at work the next day. This time around, I am much more mellow, much more relaxed and content- I believe that's the word that my friend James used to describe me. Blase even, he says.
I think when something traumatic happens to someone, it forces them to look at the world and their life differently. Such is the case with me. The girl of yesterday, is now a different woman today, folks. I feel that much more grown up. And not in a bad way at all. I'm actually enjoying this aspect of myself. Not to say that I'm no longer funny or know how to have fun- cause I still am those things. Except now I see things a bit differently.

Anyhow, with that said, this weekend, I will be fondue-ing and watching Mama Mia at the Thousand Oaks Civic Center with The Friend Who Got Away (except now she's back). Then on Sunday, I will be very domestic by cooking at home. That's my newfound joy- cooking. Go on, laugh about it.

Here's The Friend That Got Away and I at this past Saturday's Revlon Breast Cancer Walk.


and here's us with the girls we walked with- totally sucks being the shortest one!


Life is GRAND!
Super Panda

Out of my element

Lately, I've been feeling so out of my element regarding work.
I think a huge part of it has to do with the schmoozing aspect of my job.
I have yet to schedule an actual lunch/ dinner on my own since my dad died. I have yet to attend any work function/ event since my dad died.

TOTALLY NOT LIKE ME.

I used to be a total social butterfly- always hanging out with friends and work people alike. However, for some reason, I can't bring myself up to it yet. Hence the reason I will not be at the Golden Trailer Awards this year. Yes, my mind is made up on that issue. However, I still cannot help but feel some sort of guilt about not being there. I feel such a huge tug between work and personal life, and it is SO INCREDIBLY ANNOYING. I have to keep reminding myself that I am not defined by what I do, however, this business that I'm in so not like other jobs. It encompasses all aspects of my life. I guess another reason why I'm so plagued by this is ecause next month, on June 13th, my mom's birthday again coincides with another work even- The Key Art Awards. This is an event that we did not go to last year, by choice. However, there's a push to go this year. Unfortunately, last year, I was in NYC for Promax (another work event) and missed my mom's birthday. See my dilemma here? Oh, what would Jesus do?

I have been slowly getting back into the swing of things though.
I started shopping again- which is a huge vice of mine. So, technically, in some way, I am getting ready for the lunches and meetings that I will have because I have tons of lost time to make up for.

Anyhow, enough griping. Good news- 14 lbs. lost :)

Life is GRAND- although confusing at times.
Super Panda

Hooray for Fridays!!

This week was...

*really long!
*pretty challenging at home simply because my better half was barely there due to the early start of the fire season.
*pretty uneventful.

I'm glad it's almost the weekend!

Tonight:
* A mani and pedi
*Dinner with my good friend, Ms. E

This weekend:
*Boxing
*Astrology reading

Life is GRAND!
Super Panda