extremely grateful

Every night, I write down 5 things that I am grateful for before going to bed.
Number 2 on the grateful list is always for my husband's safety. Number 1 has something to do with my dad (which is supposed to help me with my grief).
Anyhow, yesterday was a truly emotional day for me. There was a helicopter crash where my husband was at, and 9 people died, 4 were injured.
When I spoke to my husband, he was bothered by the whole situation, because he says it could have been them- should they have not spiked out for the night.
It's a scary and horrible thought, and yesterday was not a day that I would ever want repeated again!

My heart goes out to the families of those firefighters.
They are all noble people doing an incredibly heroic job. It's so easy for me to put myself in their situation because my husband is out there in the front lines, doing the same thing, risking his life, our life.
My prayers and deepest sympathies are with you all.