First Mother's Day

I had a terrible night last night with the Hud. Not sure if it was because we didn't stick to his bedtime routine due the Pacquiao fight, or if he's going through his 3 month growth spurt. Yep, that's right, 3 months. How time flies!
Anyhow, I got very little sleep last night... but this morning, the hubby gave me the sweetest card, along with 2 dozen roses. Hudson gave me a cute card as well :)
We then went for a walk around the hood, and hung out with our pups at home.
That was then followed by lunch with my family, and then dinner with his family.
We are planning on celebrating again one day this week- this time, it would just be for our family. It's hard when we are trying to accommodate everyone, and since I'm not high up on the mom seniority list, it feels as if it's not really my day.

Oh, well. It is what it is.

Life is GRAND!

Hudson's Birth Announcement

This is what went out in the mail...

Front:


Back:


A very special thanks to Andrea from To Be Invited (tobeinvited.com)

Life is GRAND!

On A Side Note

2 postings in one day... Wow! A rare occasion indeed!

Anyhow, I really miss my old body. I miss fitting into my old clothes, shoes.
I miss my non chubby face.

Life is GRAND!

Sunshine comes after the rain

Hudson is A LOT better!
We struggled with colic and reflux for a while, but he has improved drastically!
He started seeing our homeopathic doctor, along with his pediatrician, and with a few formula changes, he is now the picture of a healthy baby boy!
I am so grateful that we are no longer trying to console a baby who has been crying for 6 hours straight. Gone are the days of sleeping in our rocking chair, incessant crying and screams of pain. It's like we have a different child- one who is constantly happy and always playing.

Motherhood surely isn't for sissies as I've come to realize. It's a lot of work, a lot more than I've ever imagined. But yet despite the work, the rewards are priceless!

Life is GRAND!

Oh, how I wish I could take it all away and make it all better!

Because of the Reflux
Written by IRD Member - Jen
Sunday, 20 March 2005 23:19

Because of the reflux every single day is a struggle
Because of the reflux I dread feeding time
Because of the reflux I find myself resenting my helpless/faultless infant and then feeling immense guilt over these feelings
Because of the reflux I cry every single day
Because of the reflux my friends have all given up on me because I can never go out and loathe having visitors to our unkept house
Because of the reflux I look forward to Mondays when I can bring Kieran to daycare instead of looking forward to Fridays when I have the whole weekend in front of me to spend with her, and then feel intense guilt for these feelings
Because of the reflux I am very depressed
Because of the reflux my relationship with my husband suffers
Because of the reflux we are broke due to multiple medications and expensive formulas that don't work completely
Because of the reflux acquaintances don't bother asking how I'm doing anymore because it's always the same and usually includes tears
Because of the reflux I worry about and count every single sip my daughter takes of her formula because she needs every single sip
Because of the reflux I worry about my daughter in daycare but never call to ask how she's doing because I can't bear to hear her crying in the background
Because of the reflux I feel like an unfit mother and that I can do nothing right
Because of the reflux I don't get to cuddle my baby, because it hurts her to cuddle
Because of the reflux most days I don't get to take a shower and I feel dirty and undignified
Because of the reflux I can't help but wonder if I should have had a child at all
Because of the reflux I wince when I see pregnant women because I know that they will have the cuddly, happy baby that I thought I would have
Because of the reflux I find myself wishing my daughter would grow up just a little faster so that we can be past these horrible times, where most Moms wish for time with their infants to stand still
Because of the reflux I can't take my daughter to get professional pictures taken of her, she would have a meltdown
Because of the reflux I don't take my own photos of her because she's usually crying and who wants to see photos of a crying baby?
Because of the reflux I have to interrupt her fleeting, happy morning moments to administer nasty tasting medicines that don't totally work
Because of the reflux most days I can't figure out how I'm going to make it another day
But I do make it another day and some days are good, a lot of days are bad, but I love my daughter with every cell in my body and I just hope that she senses this through all her pain.

Jealousy

Sometimes I get jealous of the moms who do it all,
because sometimes I feel (or rather most of the time) that I am barely staying afloat.
And no one is throwing me a life jacket.

Life is GRAND!

Today

I am exhausted. Physically. Mentally.
I am just tired. I have been up with Hudson for the past 5 nights. Tonight would be night 6. Milo has been working so he's not able to help me out at night.
Yesterday, I didn't get a nap in during the day, so I'm sure that didn't help my exhaustion.
I cannot wait for the hubby's 4 day. That means that he will be helping me at night, and I should be getting more sleep- either throughout the day or at night.
I'm not sure how I'm going to do this- with school starting next week, and the hubby taking overtime.
Cue the music for the pity party. It starts now.

Life is GRAND!