Sunday, August 30, 2009

Neglect

Yes, my blog has been neglected.
I am a student now and have a full time job.
Needless to say that my time is extremely limited.
I will try to post more as I get used to the new sched but that probably won't be for a while.

Life is GRAND!
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

A Promotion

A week and a half into my new job...

I am now a Kindergarten Aide 2 days a week, along with my receptionist/ substitute duties.
Yay me!
I will have my own classroom soon enough.

Loving the school, the people.
It's a lot of fun.
I am really enjoying myself!

Life is GRAND!
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Monday, August 24, 2009

Hectic

Pardon the lack of posts as I try and get acquainted with my new life.
I work from 7:30- 4, but will be starting school by next week.
Nuts!
Not too mention, I'm totally exhausted from the new job by the end of the day.

I can't believe I'm really doing this.
Sometimes it feels like a dream.

Life is GRAND!
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Saturday, August 15, 2009

Dinner and a Movie

Cheesecake Factory with a few of the gals... then Time Traveler's Wife.
What a great evening :)






Life is GRAND!
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Thursday, August 13, 2009

Today, is the Day Your New Life Begins

OK, it begins on Monday, but still...

It is 4 AM and I cannot go back to sleep.
I feel as if I'm in a state of mourning in so many ways.

For the past few months, I have longed for a new job. I have worked dilligently towards a new career- enrolled in school, sent out resumes, have gone on numerous interviews. And a few of those interviews were so promising.
Yet, a full time teaching position did not materialize.
Up until yesterday, I had some sort of hope that I would get an offer for a teaching position.
But, to my dismay, that did not happen.

What I did get is this...
an offer to work at a great school as a receptionist (and also as a substitute teacher throughout the school year).
A gift wrapped in a completely different package than what I was expecting.
OR clearly, that is how I should look at it as, because there's always a silver lining somewhere.

In so many ways, I feel that a brand new me is emerging. Or it could be the brand new lifestyle that the hubby and I are about to embark on. I am on the cusp, yet I'm finding it so hard to dive right in.
All the fears I have are lingering around. I wonder what made them decide to emerge so late in the game. Or could it have been that they were here all along, yet I just failed to notice them? And if so, how could I have ignored them then, but not now? Not when I'm right on the brink of this new life.

Or the reality of it is, that it could just be my ego talking.
This truly is a humbling change for me.
I am coming from a completely different background/ lifestyle.
At the age of 26, I have made a name for myself in a completely different industry. I was able to buy a house with my husband, and live a life of luxury (by our own standards). And all that is changing. And I'm afraid. Gone are the days when we had so much disposable income. Gone are the days when I could just shop and not care as much about the expense.
Today, the reality of all that is sinking in.

I was a damn good talent manager, if i do say so myself.
I negotiated well, and dealt with vendors and talents well.
Yet somehow, somewhere along the way, I lost the passion for all of it. It could have been when my dad died and I went to the Philippines and saw how much simpler life could be (and of course be happy). Cause I did experience all of that.
I don't know. But it happened, and here I am now.

I sometimes feel like a fool. Throwing away all I have. But, it no longer makes me happy.
So the real question is, why is it then, if it no longer made me happy, that I'm sad to be leaving it all behind?
Perhaps I'm grieving all that I'm leaving behind. And I'm in trepidation of what's ahead.

Throughout this whole journey, I have always had faith in God- although it wavered quite a bit, and I questioned my path at times (like I'm doing now). Again, there has to be a silver lining in all of this. A gift, if you will. I've always been a firm believer in things happening for a reason. And I'm desperately looking for a reason now.

I have a gift in front of me. A gift that came unexpectedly- presented to me in a completely different way than what I had expected. And I'm so hesitant to unwrap, and discover what lays ahead.

Life is GRAND- and it will always be, it's just sometimes hard.
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

An Offer

Today I got an offer from the school I interviewed at yesterday.
It's for a Full time receptionist position, and of course, the first choice in their substitute pool (since I'd already be at the school). I would be making what a substitute teacher would be making.

This is less than what the other school would offer me, should they give me an offer... which I still don't have yet.

This school that offered me a position today is closer to home, and would slowly transition me into a classroom environment. According to the principal, the receptionist position is not their long term goal for me.

Yesterday, I walked out of here wishing they would offer me a full time position.
Today I got one.

What to do? What to do?

Life is GRAND!
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

A New School

I had an interview today for a substitute teaching position.
How I wish they interviewed me for a permanent teaching position.
LOVED the school. LOVED the principals.
Plus, much closer to home.

I'm glad I got to meet the 2 ladies I did though.
Perhaps next school year?

Life is GRAND!
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