Fearful of Tomorrow

Tomorrow marks the first day back for my MIL.
It's almost been a month since she left for vacation.
The past few weeks have granted me so much emotional freedom- freedom from the stressful relationship that we now have.
Suffice it to say that I'm definitely not looking forward to a full day at the office with her tomorrow. My heart hurts and panic and anxiety are definitely kicking in. I'm an emotional wreck, not knowing what tomorrow will bring.
I know that on my end, time has not healed any pain. Perhaps it's because there was so much said- so many hurtful things that can never be taken back.
And that was a one way street. I took the high road on that one and shut my mouth. (Yes, there's a first time for everything).
So this whole month, I've been trying to desperately find a way out of my situation- I've applied for jobs, have cried my heart out in therapy, made jokes about the situation, and I even went on one interview. But the reality of it is this- I'm still living the same emotional nightmare. I'm still a wreck over the many heart breaking things that she said and accused me of, and the job hunt has not proven successful.
Even though I still refuse to give up my search for something better, I know that until I do have something else lined up, my emotional self will still be a wreck.
I am hoping that is something that will change soon.

Life is GRAND- even though it doesn't always turn out to be the way you want it to.
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Being Decisive

So after numerous discussions with my husband, and of course my trusted few, it's become very apparent to me that the next step is for me to enroll in a credential program.

And that is exactly what I'm doing.
Taking a leap of faith.
I know that all will work out well. I know that I will turn out OK, in fact, better than OK.

So, with that, I am meeting with my counselor and enrolling at the University of Phoenix next week.

I am grateful to have this matter settled.

Life is GRAND!
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Coming Out Fighting

Today, I spoke with a principal at a school I'm highly interested in teaching at. He seemed interested enough in me- the only downside being that I'm not enrolled in a credential program yet. This is not due to a lack of commitment on my part, but mainly because I'm $20 g's short of the amount of $$ I need to go back to school.
Anyhow, this principal was really cool- even giving me ideas about where to go to school, and told me numerous times to give him a call should my situation change.

So after work I came home. Threw myself another pity party and cried, you know, the usual.
But after the tears stopped, I decided to get off the couch, hop in the shower and try to figure out a way around my situation.

And this is when it dawned on me. A light bulb came on inside my head.

Why not try to see if this principal would set an interview up with me, and should he choose to hire me, I can guarantee that I will be enrolled in a credential program before the school year starts.

So, that's it. It's been decided. I will fight for my job. I am going to ask this guy to take a leap of faith with me, and in turn, I will guarantee that I will be enrolled in school before the school year even begins.

Yes, I know this is risky. Stupid even. However, at this point, I have nothing to lose. I don't have that teaching job, or any teaching job for that matter. I do have everything to gain. I am simply selling myself- offering a proposal that would behoove us both. And quite frankly, I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself and selling my short. I am going to lay it all on the line, since he's been openly communicating with me.

I'm going to get me a job.
Please pray for SUCCESS!

Life is GRAND!
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An Apology, and a Leap of Faith

I know my blog has become of a downer lately as I detail my struggles in my quest to become a teacher. And I know that it also includes the numerous pity parties that I've thrown myself within just a few weeks. And for all of that, I'm really sorry.
I wish things were going smoothly and easier in my life right now, but unfortunately, they're not. You, my readers, are just innocent bystanders in my sea of misery- which I'm definitely trying to change. I call what I'm going through- growing pains. Since I am on the path of becoming my own person, I am experiencing things that I may never have gone through before, or if I have gone through it before, I'm seeing them in a brand new light.
This whole thing certainly hasn't been easy on me, but rather the complete opposite. I am DRAINED, but I am giving it my all, or at least trying to, the best I can.

So with that said, here's what I'm on the fence about...
I'm on the fence about taking a leap of faith.
And on the fence about taking a loan out.
But the reality of it all is that I need to go back to school to get my credential.
The amount of money I need is what scares me. Especially because we just bought a house.
I really wish all this wasn't so hard. Sometimes I just feel like throwing my hands up and giving up.
But I know that for me, that's not an option.

I wish I didn't waste the past few years of my life doing what I'm doing now.
I wish I stayed in school longer and did a credential option.
I wish I planned ahead.
I wish I planned a better future for myself.
It's so hard to see that everything that's happened has happened for a reason, especially while I'm going through this.
I know that one day, I'll look back and hopefully laugh at the situation.
I just want to know that everything will be okay in the end.

And I really should start a Teaching Fund.
All donations welcome :)

Life is GRAND!
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Blah.

That about sums up how I feel today.
I couldn't sleep last night because I felt a sore throat coming.
I got up at 4, and the sore throat was in full force. I'm definitely not enjoying this.

I sent more resumes out today. I am hoping that someone will see me for the gem that I am, and just give me a shot. That's all I need. One shot. At a teaching position.
I also followed up on one of my leads, but had to leave a message. Hopefully he calls me back. Otherwise, I'll call again on Monday.

Thanks to The Teacher for the encouragement last night.
I started feeling pretty down about not having been called back for a teaching position yet, but she made me feel better about my situation. I know that the right job is waiting for me, and that the jobs I'm not being considered for are meant for someone else. I just hope that the position for me comes along fairly soon. I really just don't want to get anymore discouraged and then just lose hope. If that happens, it means that I'll be too complacent once again, and I might never leave this job. One of my biggest fears would be failure. Another, unhappiness. I'm afraid that I might be headed towards both should I not find something soon.
Staying here is definitely not an option, but I'm afraid I might have to if nothing else comes up. Again, leading me back to failaure and unhappiness.

On the bright side of things, it's about 2 1/2 weeks until the Hubby's graduation from LA City's Academy. We've waited for years for this!
And it's bittersweet for me. Bitter because I wish I was celebrating my own happiness regarding a new job, Sweet because I get to share in his. A bit selfish of me? Perhaps. However, I do reserve the right to be happy as an individual as well.

Tonight, the baking begins at my house. It's The Teacher's birthday on Monday, but she's having a celebration this Saturday. I have been asked to make a cake. I've always enojyed baking and decorating since it offers me peace and solace. However, it's been a while since I've baked, so I hope it still offers the same promise.

Life is GRAND!
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It's Not You, It's Me...

and really, that's what it comes down to... even though the job hasn't been offered to me.

So the interview...

I think it went well. However, after the job description was fully outlined, I've decided that I don't want the job, should they offer it to me. There is no room for growth. I was told by the principal that usually, people who have been teachers are the ones that apply for the director of advancement/ admissions, so in a way, I'd be going backwards. The job description online also said, some nights and weekends- but after talking to them, it seemed mostly nights and weekends, plus a lot of driving to different schools to promote the school. At the end, we were laughing and brainstorming ideas regarding a new school video, what else can be done to promote the school. The Vice Principal even walked me to the front door!

As great as that sounds, I'm really interested in a teaching position. Now I just need someone to give me that chance.

I'm grateful for the interview.
Glad I got a chance to get a feel for it and see what it's like.

Life is GRAND!
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A Full Day

Actually, make that week. A full week.

There's been tons of ups and downs- sometimes, it happens by hour, sometime by days.
However, there does seem to be more ups lately, so for that, I am grateful.

I have an interview this coming week. Please keep me in your prayers.
I am praying, and hoping that this the right job for me, or at least the right school.
I have been preparing myself for this.
I grilled the teacher, and fro girl about what I should say in my interview. They helped tons!!

Oh, and yes, you might have noticed that I've taken to giving people nicknames. These are not meant to offend anyone, but rather to protect their privacy. If it is offensive, please let me know, and I will gladly stop referring to you by that name. However, do know that these are terms of endearment, especially coming from me.

So here's some weekend updates:

Friday:
We got out of work early, so I decided to trek over to CSUN to get a copy of my transcripts for my portfolio that I am putting together for my interview. An hour after getting out of work, I was finally on my way home. At least until I decided to head over to Target for some organizational items. I wanted a few things that would hold paperwork for the beginning of the school year, and wanted a few things to go along with my new Teacher Planner. Yes, I know it all seems premature, however, there is a method to my madness. I am acting AS IF! I am OWNING IT!

Saturday:
The Brit and I were supposed to go to a Zumba class at a dance studio near us, but it was closed for the long weekend. So instead, we headed over to Pierce college. We went on a hike. Then we headed home to get ready for the Cajun Festival. Tons of fun. I am however, slightly burnt- not so fun. We ate our fill of Cajun food, and I even lucked out and got some sugar free, gluten free macaroons to go with my tea. Yum! Then the hubby and I headed over to see my family. I spent some time with them while the hubby visited some old friends at Bear Divide. It was a fun, relaxing evening.

And the best part of it all is that the weekend is not even over yet!

Oh yes, my mom told me that she is inviting my MIL and FIL to her 75th birthday, which is on June 13. Ok, that's fine, as long as you all visualize with me-
THAT I WILL HAVE A JOB OFFER ON OR BEFORE JUNE 15th. There's power in numbers, so please keep me in mind.

Life is GRAND!
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My DUH! Moment

So yesterday morning, while walking with the Brit and Baby C, she mentioned that perhaps my MIL (that means Monster In Law, for those who aren't in the know), probably thinks that I'm looking to steal some of her clients. The Brit goes on to say that she probably knows you're looking for another job, and might take some talents with you.

And the light came on.

That yes, perhaps she is thinking that I'm looking for another job in this crazy business we're in. BUT, she is OH SO WRONG! Because I'm looking for another job in a completely different field.

And so I told the hubby this last night, and he said "DUH!"
And he proceeded to tell me that he thought the exact same thing.

Clearly, I've been to wrapped up in my own thoughts that I never even considered what she could be thinking. Frankly, I just didn't care.

Imagine her surprise when I tell her I'm leaving. Leaving to teach.
YAY ME :)
TEAM SUPER PANDA ALL THE WAY!
HA!

Life is GRAND!
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I'm on to the next phase!!!

Yes!

Yesterday at therapy, I was telling my therapist that I need to move on to the next phase, so that I at least feel like I'm moving on. I've been feeling stuck these past few days.

So last night, after praying and releasing- somehow it clicked, that I need to just release, and so I did. I let go and let God.
Easy to say, but so hard to do. But I told God that I was so exhausted of carrying this burden, because I know that he has it all planned out for me. And as I prayed, I felt my shoulders lighten up a bit.

And God does work in mysterious ways... because today, I received an email for an interview. It's for a Director of Advancement/ Outreach position. I am nervous and excited. But mostly, I am grateful. Grateful that there is movement. Grateful that the universe is meeting me halfway.

And to add to my already wonderful day, I received the sign that I have been asking for. Everytime I want to be reassured of something, I ask the angels for a sign. This time around, I asked for a red dragonfly (something I've only seen twice, and saw last year, a few months after my dad passed). I asked that I see a hovering red dragonfly, because surely I wouldn't miss this sign. If one showed before the 3oth of May, then it would mean that everything would be well- I'd have a new job this coming school year, and that I would be out of here by August/ September.
So today, during my lunch, while I was talking to one of my sister's in my backyard, a red dragonfly caught my eye in my neighbor's yard. I couldn't believe it!
Then it proceeded to do a dance in my yard, where it lingered for a while.

So today, has been an incredibly blessed day.
Thank you God! Thank you angels! I know I am being directed and guided into what is right for me- for the good of all.

Life is GRAND!
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Slightly Looking Up!

Today, I woke up feeling slightly, refreshed.
Yesterday, was horrible, and today definitely is a much brighter day.

I spoke to the zoo lady last night, and she definitely helped me out. Restored my spirits, I would say. She used to be a teacher and she gave me great info. She told me how she got her start, and I'm applying to the same placement company. Even though it's just for substitute teaching, it will at least get my foot in the door, and give me the experience I need. She also told me that because of the economy, I am competing with a lot of experienced teachers, which of course puts me at a disadvantage. However, she also told me to persevere and that it will be worth it.
She told me that I will land somewhere.

Oddly enough, I've been hearing this from people throughout this pity party of mine, but it wasn't until she said that something clicked.
I hope that the joy and excitement lasts for a while.
It's so not fun feeling sorry for yourself.

Life is GRAND!
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The Pity Party Parade

Came to town early this morning, and it's lingering.
I am an emotional wreck.
I am doing everything I can so as not to start sobbing here in my office.

I. JUST. DON'T. WANT. TO. BE. HERE.

I haven't heard from any schools regarding my resume.

I feel like I'm running out of time. Out of hope.
As the days go by, I feel as if the walls are closing in- but really, it's because my MIL is coming back and that's got me panicking.
I just need someone, anyone, to give me a chance.
I have been begging desperately through prayer for a shot at something.

And PLAN B, isn't really all that appealing. Not that there's a concrete PLAN B.

I feel as if I've hit rock bottom. So much so, that I don't even like my own company.

Life is GRAND!
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Job Hunt Update

I called today to follow up.

I got 2 voicemails, and 1 Vice Principal.
I hope the ones I left messages for call me back.
I hope the Vice Principal decides that she'd like to meet me.

I think the English teacher position at St. Genevieve has been filled. The job is no longer posted on their school website. Bummer! It just means that this wasn't my spot. The right school will come along.

And guess what? An opening at Holy Family High School opened up today in the English Department.
Perhaps that's the right spot??

According to the Vice Principal, they don't start calling for interviews until they have at least 5 resumes. They just posted the job today. She said that hopefully I hear from someone within the next 3-4 days. Keep your fingers crossed.
Please.

I know that the right school, the right position will come along.
I just CANNOT wait! I'm so excited!

Life is GRAND!
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Quickie Updates

Since I've done nothing but rant about my new endeavor- which is to get a job in the field of education, I've decided it's time for a few quickie updates.

*The hubby is almost done with the Academy.
4 weeks from today is graduation. June 18th, Drill Tower 40. He had his last physical and written test (before the final) today. He's decided that he is buying himself a gift for having gotten this far. That means our PS3 will be getting lots of love soon.

*Meg, E, and I hit up the Strawberry Festival this past weekend. We were stuck in traffic for a while. A long while. But we had a lot of fun. It was great bonding with the gals. We saw the Brit at the fair, but she left early.
Good food, great company. Up next- Cajun Festival this coming weekend.
I think the hubby and I will be heading to that.

So, this is just a random thing.
EVERYDAY, and I mean that...
I take something home from work that is mine.
I am slowly cleaning my desk, and taking bits and pieces of me away :)

Ok, I thought I had more updates (generally speaking). Turns out I don't.
Tune in to the next installment.

Life is GRAND!
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All Signs Point to YES!

Ok, I know there are a few of you who might be skeptics, or might just plain call BS on what's about to be written... but please, don't say I didn't warn you.
This is also based on my belief system, and this is my blog, so quite frankly, my dears, I just don't give a damn :)

I spoke to Rex yesterday. Rex is my astrologer. This man has said so many things that have taken place in my life. I see him about once a year.
Yesterday, we had our first phone conversation because I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing in terms of looking for a new job.

And yes, I am.
He said that I need to go before it affects my health any more.
That my time here is up. That I am unhappy. Things that I never told him.
He mentioned that there is a mother figure (whether my MIL or my own) that is causing problems for me. HA! Little does he know.

Anyhow, according to Rex, I will be an inspired teacher.
I will have a teaching job this coming school year.
He said that the way I dress for work will definitely change. That I will be dressing formally.
HA! Especially cause I wear work out clothes now. Yes, work out clothes.
I work out during lunch, before work, after work.
Crazy, I know.

So, this is my new life. Welcome to the chaos of job hunting, more specifically career transitioning. I am excited for all the possibilities that lay ahead.
Keep me in your prayers!!

Life is GRAND!
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Dancing Queen

Make that QUEENS- with an S.
That would be the Brit, the gril from Junior High, and I.
We went to Zumba last night at the gym.
And our hips moved- A LOT.

It was a ton of fun. And definitely great company.
It was a much needed break for me- a break from all that is going on.

Life is GRAND!
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Trust Your Journey

That is something I am currently having some problems with.
As much as I don't give into doubting myself much, I cannot help but indulge it from time to time. After all, whatever you resist, persists, and I for one, certainly do not want this feeling lingering around.

I have yet to hear from any of the schools I have applied to. I did get a response from the Vice Principal at St. Monica's high school saying she'll forward my resume to the right people. That's a start. However, my first choice (St. Genevieve High) or second choice (Guardian Angel) still have yet to respond.

Soon, I tell myself. Soon. They will be calling me to set up an interview. I guess the reason I wanted it to happen sooner than the fates will allow is that for the whole month of May, my boss is out of the office, making it easier for me to go to interviews, because quite frankly, I've never been a good liar. And that's what I would have to do if I have an interview when she's back.

Anyhow, since I'm not above begging, please, I am asking for you, my dear readers, to pray for me. Pray that I have a job soon. A job that I enjoy, in an environment where I will thrive. As a reminder, please remember that me being unhappy DOES NOT equal me being ungrateful. They are entirely 2 different things. I am extremely grateful for all that I have been blessed with, even this experience. However, I am not happy at my place of business.

Life is GRAND!
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Believe, Behave, Become

Everyday, the Universe is conspiring to make sure that I am aware that I am no longer meant to be here.
Today is definitely one of those days.
And it is not even 11:30 yet.
I am counting down the days until I am actually doing what it is I'm meant to be doing.
I am following my path, however it's been paved.
I just need the patience for the journey.

And yes, I've thought about what I would do should I not get a teaching job for the Fall 2009 school year. However, I can tell you for sure that I have NEVER been one for contingency plans. I'm a firm believer that if you ask, then you shall receive. And plus, I'm doing my share of the work. Everyday I am. I KNOW that the Universe will meet me halfway. Should it not be for the Fall 2009 school year, then I know that something else is in the works for me. That's how it works folks. Trust. I trust that things will happen when they are supposed to. That a spot is open just for me. That I am taken care of, and well provided for. That I will get what I need and want at the right time. Call it blind faith. But isn't faith all blind?

And no, I have not always been this way. At times, I've been controlling. Far too controlling than was healthy, or right, because there are things that are just too far out of our control. Plus, I've learned that life is so much sweeter when you let go of things that you cannot control. It's far easier to roll with the tide, than it is to resist change. And yes, I may feel disappointed over events that may not go as I imagined, but it's all a process, really.

Life is GRAND!
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One A Day

Ever since I've come to the conclusion that my job no longer satisfies me, and yes, since that one fateful Tuesday, it's become my other job to become employed as a teacher. I have been doing one thing a day (sometimes more) to help further my goal.
Weekends are no exceptions- in fact, I think I get a lot more done on the weekends.
So this past weekend, I...

*bought a few "teaching" clothes. Slacks, button down shirts, modest, yet fashionable tops. I am ready for the coming school year- late Summer, Fall. Bring it on!
I even have an outfit for parent teacher conferences! Of course, I only have the bare minimum so far, but enough to get me through. I do need a winning interview outfit- that I still have yet to figure out, especially because the weather will play a huge part in that.
A side note- these professional, more tailored clothes I bought are a total departure from what I wear daily, considering I usually go to work in gym clothes. Yes, gym clothes. I work out before work, and during my lunch. Then I work out again after work. And should I have a lunch meeting or a dinner, I usually just wear jeans. Casual- very! So I'm excited to be dressing up.

*dug out all my old college essays. I have a huge stack of them.
I have yet to re- read through all of them, but I have them.

*acquired a few books that will refresh my memory, should I happen to get the high English teacher job that I am applying for. That is actually my top choice. I am prepared to tackle novels and poems. A big thank you to my hubby for buying these for me- they were my career switch gift :)

*printed hard copies of my cover letter and resume, put them in an envelope, and got them ready to be mailed out. All 21 of them. Maybe 22.
I will then start my day tomorrow by taking these to the post office, along with a prayer that I will soon be called for an interview.

*received my first letter of recommendation, from my dear friend, M (The Teacher).
I am so grateful for her help. And she really has helped me out through all this.


So, I am definitely well on my way to teaching at a school near you!

But, until then...
Life is GRAND!
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Happy Mother's Day

to all the mother's in my life.
You are all a blessing.

Life is GRAND!
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I Choose Life

And really, I'm claiming my right to choose.
My right to my own life.
My right to enjoy my personal life.
My right to establish boundaries between my personal and professional life.
My right to be in control of my life.

These are a few things that I've given up while I was pursuing my career now.
And while I'm so grateful for how my life has turned out, how my career has blossomed into what it is now, I'm also ready to for a change.
Ready to claim what is rightfully mine.
And what's listed above are a few of those things.

Please keep on praying that all will work out.

For everything that has been, THANKS!
For everything that will be, YES!

Life is GRAND!
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Mission half way accomplished

Tonight
I sent out my resume and letter to about a dozen or so Catholic private schools.
I have done my part- actively seeking out and praying for a new job.

Please, please, Universe- meet me half way.

The goal is to have something lined up for the Fall 2009 school year.

Life is GRAND!
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True Life

It's come to my attention that certain people may not understand the complexity of my situation. They also do not understand that this is real life- the people, the places, the events, they are ALL real. This is not a soap opera.
So, please tread lightly. Because what might be amusing to you, really isn't to me.
After all I'm living it.

Life is GRAND!
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Words of Wisdom

With everything that I am going through, I have been reading quite a few things that I've found encouraging. These are usually my go to poems/ quotes, etc. that I've placed all around me at my desk here at work. I thought I'd share a few- because they definitely help inspire me to keep going.

“It does us no good whatsoever to complain or be bitter about what’s happening. In fact, such behavior can only do us harm. We waste precious energy if we resist, get angry, or give in to grief over all that’s being lost. We jeopardize our future if we cling to old assumptions and expectations about how careers should operate.
Frankly, the world doesn’t care about our opinions. Or our feelings. The world rewards only those of us who catch on to what’s happening, who invest our energy in finding and seizing the opportunities brought about by change.

And change always comes bearing gifts.”
Price Pritchett The Employee Handbook of New Work Habits For A Radically Changing World

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma- which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
Steve Jobs, at a college graduation

"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the
chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness.
Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation),
there is one elementary truth the ignorance of
which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that
the moment one definitely commits oneself, then
providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to
help one that would never otherwise have occurred.
A whole stream of events issues from the decision,
raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen
incidents and meetings and material assistance,
which no man could have dreamed would have
come his way.
Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.
Begin it now".
J. W. von Goethe

[IF]

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
--Rudyard Kipling

and lastly...
this from Maya Angelou, not so much words of encouragement, but it's a constant reminder for me regarding my switch in careers.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Life is GRAND!
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Quick Updates

The feelings of self pity have been replaced by determination and excitement.
Yes, it still sometimes rears its ugly head, but for the most part I've been able to deal. I'm excited for what lays ahead. My resume has been tailored for the new career I'm hoping to get into, and with a few more adjustments, I'll be golden :)

Again, thank you to all those who have helped and continue to help and support me through this time. Without all of you, I wouldn't be where I am now- confident and ready to move forward.

Friday: The alarm system got installed at our house. I am definitely sleeping much more peacefully at night. The hubby has forgotten a few times that we have the alarm, so it's gone off quite a few times. I'm hoping he'll remember it from now on.

Saturday: Good times at the house. We had my family and a few friends over for the Pacquiao/ Hatton fight. A great time was definitely had by all! Pacquiao killed it- 2rounds and Hatton was knocked out!

Sunday: Church. I met the principal at the school where I'm really interested in pursuing a teaching career. She told me that they were fully staffed, but that you never know, and she gave me her email address. I will definitely be sending her my resume before the week is over. I also took a long nap, and spent some quality time with the hubby.

My sister sent me this today as part of an email, and it's so full of promise and hope that I can't help but post it.

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence... 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'

God's grace is definitely everywhere!
Life is GRAND!
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